One Way Ticket

I guess I should feel excited, nervous, perhaps overwhelmed.

The truth is I hardly feel any strong emotions.

I packed five years of college in two bags. I tried not to bring much but I have to admit I probably packed a couple of shirts I have never used and will never use. I do not have a job, just a college degree which I am not even sure exactly what it stands for since I feel like I have so much more to learn.

I know I will get a job, I have been applying to hundreds of them, one should reply soon. I guess It will be easier once I am there.

Everyone asked me to wait a little longer but I know it is time to leave. Regardless of the situation I am in right now,  I can’t be selfish with myself.

There is this girl inside of me, sitting in the back of my eyes. She has been waiting for too long. She has been waiting for her turn five years ago. She could not wait any longer.

She does not know about time or money. All she knows is that there is something greater waiting for her.

Like the artist that has been waiting all his life for the right materials, like the mother waiting to give birth, like a kid waiting for his parents to pick him up after school. This girl in me has been behind the stage for too long. It is her time to be heard, to be her.

And so I get into my flight with no big feelings, no big hopes, no attachments and no expectations. Just pure acceptance.

A deep calm understanding that I am doing exactly what I am meant to do. Not because it is written in the stars, neither out of rebellion or as a form of escapism. Simply because I decided to do so and I am making it happen as I move along.

A one way ticket makes me feel invincible.

“Caminante no hay camino, se hace camino al caminar”

2 Comments

  1. Rose Jabbour

    Sol, I truly believe you have a way with words. I have seen you type away and it is like your creating your own language. You pour your soul into these texts and I am in constant admiration with your talent. I support you on your path towards success. Don’t ever let that fire within you go out. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it’s yours.

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    1. solmoralesblog

      Rose, I truly appreciate your words of inspiration and admiration. I must say I am beyond thankful for your friendship and infinite support thought these years. My words flow through me and grow with me from all the most creative and adventurous moments I have experiences in life, many of which were felt next to you. I wish to experience this desired world with you, I am eager to see what the future holds for us. Best, Sol.

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